Eb and Flow

I'm not sure what exactly I am trying to write about here except that I know I keep praying for God to bring me a friend. I had a wonderful friend, that I met just a few weeks after we moved here, and then she and her family had to move due to circumstances..... I feel so detached sometimes, and remedy that by plugging into school and church activities more and more. But as I have had to take a break from a lot of these outlets over the past few months, I have had time to ponder once again, the fact that I really wish that I had a woman friend to have tea and visit with. So far God has brought a few new people into my life causing me to hope once again, but they just don't seem to be the fit that my far away friend fulfills. So many of the people that I meet here seem to already have so many connections going in their lives that they just don't have the time or need of another friend, much less a best friend. Why does this one little thing make me feel so disconnected sometimes?? I have so many people around me that are amazing people. Awesome Christian, loving, honorable, hard working people...... Why is it that God brings people into our lives sometimes and then makes them leave again? I know that it's all part of His cosmic plan, and that we are all here to serve Him and do His work, but I still question why, sometimes.....

On the other hand, I have the most amazing best friend that a person could ever have, in my husband. He is passionate, loving, kind, respectful, honorable, just, faithful, and a strong man of God. He treats me like a queen, works from sun up to sun down taking care of his family, both at work and once he gets home. He has been struggling so much with trying to get firewood put up for winter, and I feel so bad that I haven't been able to help at all with that. I feel that he is trying his absolute best and I admire him for that. He is an amazing father, and God has chosen the perfect match for me for me in him.

So as I look out the window today and watch the harsh North Eastern Wind howl at the trees, I am reflecting on my friendship blessings. God has put so many people into my life to help me walk the path that He has chosen for me, that I dare not complain. And I will keep praying that God will reveal to me once more a true woman friend, whom I can feel truly comfortable with, leaving no reserve.