A walk with Christ through the garden; where my weakness allows His strength to shine through.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Darkness
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
A great realization.....
I have realized something great these past few days. I have discovered something amazing. Now that I can understand it, it has opened a whole new way of thinking for me. I think, how silly am I that I didn’t figure this out before. It all began as I was thinking about Christianity in the Country.
Really, it’s not just a religion, it’s a “label.” And there isn’t just one label, there are several and it’s very basically, stereotyping. You see a large percentage of Americans in general consider themselves to be “Christian” then there are they types that call themselves “Born-Again Christians.” There are also countless other names that define these label even more. Mostly it’s distinguishing between the different types of churches themselves. Some would say “I’m a Baptist” or “I am Lutheran” or “I’m a Multi Denominational.” These labels don’t really matter that much to the world around us, they are just categorized in the “high strung, nuisance, preachy person” category of personality types. I try very hard to live my life as an “example” of Christ. I want people to get to know me and know that there is something different about me; I want them to wonder about it, but I don’t want it to be so obvious that I am labeled as a “fanatic.” There is definitely a place for “fanatic” Christian’s in the world. I am not trying to put them down however; I think that sometimes that approach isn’t the right one for some people. Some people can be turned off by it, and thus lost to Christ all together. One encounter, one snide remark, one judging glance can harden a persons heart forever. How is it that even some pastors can’t seem to distinguish between nudging in the right direction, and pushing someone away? They try so hard to “lay down the law” that Christ’s heart of Love is extinguished in them and they turn into a fundamentalist nag to everyone around them.
1 Timothy 1:3-7 “As I urged you when I went into Macedonia, stay there in Ephesus so that you may command certain men not to teach false doctrines any longer nor to devote themselves to myths and endless genealogies. These promote controversies rather than God’s work—which is by faith. The goal of this command is love, which comes from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith. Some have wandered away from these and turned to meaningless talk. They want to be teachers of the law, but they do not know what they are talking about or what they so confidently affirm.”
I do think that Christ wants us to preach his word, I know it actually, and it’s biblical truth. Christ wants us to go throughout the world and spread his message of Love.
Romans 12:9-21 9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[a] Do not be conceited.
17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"[b]says the Lord. 20On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."[c] 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
Where in there does it say to smack people upside the head with your religion?? It’s the hypocritical Christians out there that talk the talk but don’t walk the walk that are ruining the chances that the rest of us have for actually bring people to the truth about this Earth! Do us all a favor, if you want to be considered a Christian,
Luke 10:27
He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind' ; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' "
So, all that said, that part really had nothing to do with what I realized the other day! I realized that Christ is the ONLY perfect person, man that has ever lived on the Earth! No, that actually isn’t what I realized, I knew that part…. what I hadn’t put together yet was that because of that fact, I CANNOT expect anyone else on the Earth to be perfect! We are not capable! When I get upset about some minimal imperfection in someone, I need to accept it as just that, no one is perfect. If I want to have a relationship with someone who will never let me down I have to have that relationship with Christ Himself. So, after all these years of perhaps “substituting” humans for that need of a perfect person in my life I have suddenly come to the realization that I was looking for perfection in the wrong place. Shame on me. I should have known. After all it is clearly written that:
1 Peter 1:18-20 (New International Version) For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake.
So, here’s to a new way of looking at my life and the lives of others around me. I also hope that others will grant me the same liberty. I have really always known this, and it probably sounds stupid to some, but I just hadn’t thought of it in this exact way before. That being said I am feverishly aiming towards a better relationship with Him, and I know that I will NOT be disappointed! I hope that anyone who reads this and doesn’t know Jesus yet, to think really hard about this and what He promises to do for you. It’s not just a matter of salvation, though that is the point of Him coming, it’s a matter of a life long companion, a relationship that will never let you down, His cell phone batteries are never out of juice!!
Footprints
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.
This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.
Carolyn Carty, 1963
Obama Rant
I recently received a Gadget that was supposed to be a “tax calculator” for Barak Obama….. It said I would be getting a check if I voted him into office. I ran through their little calculator and was amazed at their supposed figures. Hmm, let’s see. Our country is in the biggest financial downfall since the great depression, our national debt is higher than it has ever been and they want to bribe me with money that could be paying down our countries debt. I understand the concept of incentive checks and stimulating the economy with it, but, hey it didn’t work last time, are we really going to throw away more of our countries money so that people can go pamper themselves again?? How about passing out checks to families willing to pay down their accrued debt instead of flaunting it in peoples faces as they go out and buy a new “toy.” Sarcasm ahead-Lets make the people actually trying to stay out of debt feel even worse about telling their kids that they can’t afford extracurricular activities yet again because they are trying to stay financially wise and not go screw up their credit score! So, here we are trying to be good stewards of our money and other peoples kids are bragging about going to the mall and having a shopping spree for those new trendy clothes, or that hot new electronic game! Instead of stimulating the economy, our country is bound and determined to push people into more and more debt. Lets take out another loan against our house, it’s okay, the government will bail us out if we can’t make the payments! Sure we don’t even make $4000 a month to cover that new higher interest only loan payment, but we can just skate along until it hits us and then bail and leave mortgage companies to foot the bill. Better yet, how about not helping those mortgage companies that are failing right now because they encouraged Joe Shmoe to take that “new and improved, top-notch, best in the business loan!” Let’s let them figure out how to pay for that house, the one that they encouraged those unsuspecting, clue-less mortgage patrons to buy that was WAY out of their price range!
Sure, this guy is full of hope and he’s making all these claims that he’s just going to re-allocate government funds, and that the country won’t be going into more debt to do this whole stimulus/rebate check thingy. But even the blindest person, has to admit, that if there is debt, even a re-allocation of funds, isn’t a good excuse to go buy that new car. Wake up people! There is a difference between need and want. I NEED groceries, but I don’t need that new toy just because I want it. What happened to saving these fun purchases for holidays and rainy days! Why is it that our nation is so impatient, that they can’t even wait for Christmas anymore!? We need to STOP! DROP! and ROLL!! We are on fire here and if we don’t start paying some of our money for attention, we are going to BURN! This country has ADHD!!
Signing off,
Tifany
Monday, September 22, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Ice Skating Pictures
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Ice Skating
Cayleb is learning how to skate so that he can play Hockey, so he's just glad to be back on the ice :)
I am just glad that I won't be going to 2 different places 4-5 times a week!! B'Ham is getting more and more expensive to get to these days, though I did get Diesel today for under $4 a gal. I haven't been able to do that for almost a year I think!! It was a nickel away from $5 for way to long!!
Right now was are playing catch-up on the school we "missed" this morning. My extra kiddos aren't here today since today is Zoie's Birthday and her Mom was able to take the day off and treat her to some fun! We are just relaxing, and enjoying the quiet while Sarah Rose gets her nap. We have AWANA tonight so that will be plenty loud to make up for the peace right now!
Gotta Go.
Tif
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Marvelous Monday :)
Madd
Moody
Magnificent
Mischievous
Macho
Money
Mooselicious
Marockin
Hmmm..... Okay, I guess we'll go with magnificent this time :)
Yesterday was great. I decided to throw our schedule out the window, and instead created a lot more detailed assignment sheets for each of the kids. That way they could decide what they wanted to work on, yet still have the ability to see what they need to do. So it was fun for them to get those choices, and they could go at whatever pace they wanted to. This was a big plus for the big kids, as they didn't have to wait for me to finish up things with the younger ones before they moved on. Some got done pretty early and had free time, others worked until lunch and a few had just a little to do after lunch. We did spelling together after lunch and also our Konos fun stuff about the Music and Sound experiments unit that we are working on. I felt mush more relaxed about it, not feeling like I was holding anyone back, or pushing anyone ahead either. And it let me work with a few at a time on Math, because the most I got working on Math at one time was 4 and it was all the younger ones.
Six has been an adventure so far, but I am enjoying it and will keep it up :)
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Life in general
I'm getting ready for another busy week. We are starting our 4th week of Homeschooling and are going strong. Last week we had a few slow days for kiddos to catch up on lost sleep and some had dentist appointments, but other than that we have been trying our best to have fun. I hope that we continue to have fun as we continue to get more and more done each day. I am hoping that we get our Math-U-See in soon, so that the kids who are waiting to start their books can start soon. In the meantime, they are having fun helping the other kids with theirs, as well as continuing to work on telling time. I am so thankful that Jesus is my strength because I know that none of this would be happening or working without Him as my strength. Some may think that that seems weak, but to me, it's my strength and courage.
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Now playing: Chris Daughtry - What About Now
via FoxyTunes
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Why Jesus?
Simple answer: Because the wages of sin is eternal death (not literal death on Earth, but it separates us from Him in eternity), we deserve death in God's eyes when we sin against Him. Jesus died in our place, for our sins, so that we could have life (eternal life.)
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Boring Blog
We went swimming yesterday while Jason went to Costco for me. He also gets to work today and tomorrow, first overtime in a LONG time (like 6 months or so!) Every little bit helps!
Kristy's not feeling well, I hope that she is feeling better soon!!!! You need to go to sleep at a better hour, silly.... maybe it's all these 1-2 o'clock schedules??!!
I also have been doing a little self observation. I have known since I was in the 6th grade or so that I have quite a few allergies. Most of them are ones that I really can't do anything about..... Grass, Trees, Rag Weed, Mold etc..... But I have been starting to notice a trend of headaches after I eat 2 of my food allergies Eggs and Potatoes! I was getting pretty bad headaches more and more often over the past few years.... I have been trying to narrow them down by cause so that I know how best to treat them. I know know that I get them for the obvious outdoor allergy reason, as well as by being dehydrated or waiting a little too long to eat, monthly wonders of being a woman reasons, as well as possibly food allergies. So, now that I hope that I am getting a better idea of why I get these literal pains in the neck and head, I hope that I can find good ways to treat them, not via OTC pain relievers. I have never been one to "pop pills" I hate doing that to my body. So, ultimately, I would like to find other ways to deal with them......There's not much I can do for the outdoor allergies, I won't restrict my outdoor activity unless it's smokey or while people nearby are mowing.... But I can try to take better care of myself by drinking lots of water, which I'd like to add I have been doing much better at! Eating proper meals IE: enough protein and vitamin rich veggies and whole grains has always been a goal of mine. And if I can contribute not eating my fave. baked home made french fries, and the fresh eggs that our lovely chickens lay for us..... well I will have to try :)
See, I told you it was boring!!!
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
A friend being refined......
Just be patient with it, time will smooth things over. But I know that patience can be torture too. Just make sure that you are putting all your trust in the one truth that you have in this life. The one that if all the mess around you just disappeared you would be held up by it. I know you know what I am talking about. God doesn't give us anything that we cannot handle, but we also have to choose not to handle the things that are too heavy. We have to put it down for a while sometimes to rest. Pray about it. Hand it over to him, give him the control and then try to sit back and listen to the quiet whispers of his presence in your life! He loves you, if nothing else makes sense, even if He doesn't make sense you have to try to have the faith to know that He is still there, even if you can't see Him or feel Him. I am praying for you, that you will find some peace within and stop tormenting yourself to be a better person. We are what God makes us and that is important to Him. I pray that He will comfort you and make you aware of His presence in your life because only He can make you pure as gold and gentle as a lamb. Refining is a terrible thing to go through, but just try to accept it and just make sure that you are refining how He wants you to :) I am Praying that His love and peace will cover you like a warm quilt on a cold winter night. That you will be able to distinguish between God's will and plans and your own Earthly ones. I am praying for you to be strong, and for wisdom for you and your family and friends. I am sorry I can't do more than that, but I did witness a miracle this week that has validated my respect for prayer and it's power.
Monday, September 1, 2008
My parents house was spared.
Blessed by His grace,
Tifany
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Getting Started....
I mentioned before that we would be having a few extra kids here to school with us, so our number has gone from 4 to 7 on weekdays from 6:30 a.m. to 6:30 p.m.
I also just finished completing 6 SLP's (Student Learning Plans) for them!!! Each of which is 7 full pages on my word program, complete with EALR's and all!! So gotta go for now....
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
A Little Less Overwhelmed...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
News News News!!
Phew, Okay, I had to get that off my chest. Yesterday after much dwelling and trying to deal with my sad heart, I decided to do a huge thing. A friend of mine, who has been home schooling her children since they were school age, is going through the beginning of a separation with her husband and has had to return to work just to make ends meet. She has been torturing herself because putting her children in public school has been unavoidable yet untollerable, as I can understand. After having Cayleb home for just one year I can't imagine sending him back to a place that I know hurts him and demeans him. So, after much prayerful thought and consideration on my part I have offered to home school her children with mine until a things get straightened out in her life so that she can once again take over.
So, what does this mean for my family? Well, to start we all need to start going to bed earlier because her schedule requires her to drop off her 3 kiddos here at a bright and early 6:15. And since mine are used to getting up closer to 7 I need them to go to bed a little earlier so that I don't have crankies on my hands!! But that's not a huge deal. I am hoping that Sarah Rose can still manage to sleep in a little each morning so that I have a little time to get ready for the days. Next is the idea of having 3 extra kiddos here every day for school 5 days a week. I had already gotten myself mentally psyched for my 3, so 3 more of very similar ages doesn't seem to be a HUGE deal, though I do have a fair share of butterflies in my stomach. I think that for the most part it's just not going to be as relaxed as I was hoping it would be, at least not in the beginning because I need to develop a good routine and schedule that gets everyone where I need them when I need them there. We will need to try extra hard to stick to our schedule unless we want to go off on a tangent for a while :) It will be more like an assembly line instead of a well, I don't really have a good work for it right now.... But I am still hoping to cling to the relaxed reading time and sharing time and morning gathering time.
We will have one place to go each week, besides field trips, and that will be my kids two classes in Blaine each Tuesday. My truck will just hold the 8 of us! Hehe, Wow, I knew we needed lots of room, but lately we have been managing to fill her up quite a bit! (and I don't just mean the fuel tank!)
So, for now we are working through the preliminary set-up for what we will be doing and how to figure out what feeding the extra ones will cost us etc. So, I will leave it at that, because my brain needs to go work on something else for a while.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Jason's real Birthday!
The kids picked out Pizza for Daddy's Birthday Dinner, so we made fresh pizza with Salami and Black Olives just for Daddy!! I also had been working on his cake since Monday....
Here's my secret cake design!!
Brownie crust, homemade double chocolate ice cream, homemade caramel sauce and a home made fudge topping!! A Diabetic Coma in one slice!! But, boy was it yummy!! :) He loved it!!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
The Dark Knight!
A Short Recap-
I left him 4 notes around the house with information about where he could find me (The kids and I were not home!) and what to do etc..... Eventually he made it over to my friend Kristy's house where I had dropped off the kids so that we could actually have a real DATE!! And then we headed off..... I took him to Bob's Burgers and Brews (Superb Hamburgers and JoJo's) for a nice relaxing but informal dinner. Then we headed off to get our tickets for the movie that we had both been waiting forever to go see!! Batman has always been his favorite.... that was my first Christmas Present to him a LONG LONG LONG time ago..... 4 VHS tapes of the 4 Batman movies that were out at the time (Michael Keaton will always hold a special place as Batman in my heart, Val Kilmer Sucked and Clooney didn't do much better, this new guy is good though!!) So we went and got our tickets, but because we were taking our time, we missed the 7:30 showing and had to wait til 9:50!!! OMGoodness I was trying to hard to stay awake!! But I made it and the movie was great and we got to walk around the mall together for a few hours just talking and dreaming. We got popcorn and a soda to share and had stopped by the grocery store to pick up a few theater boxes of sweets to *sneak in* Come on, I'm not going to pay $4.00 for a box of candy that is $1 in the store!! Hehe!! The evening turned out perfect and he had a great time and so did I!!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
A Second look at the Seattle Science Center.... and other good news :)
Friday, August 8, 2008
To my two 8-8-08 babies!!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Garden Snakes and the Wiggles
They were all very gentle and kept taking turns for a few more minutes, then Mom told them to catch and release! A little while later they caught their own! Good Job guys. We love God's creatures great and small :)
Monday, August 4, 2008
Marvelous Monday!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Sarah Rose's Surgery
Monday, July 28, 2008
Sarah Rose
Okay, sorry :)
Okay here is the post with progress pictures of the yard, and I don't have one of the two trees, but you still get the picture :)
Charity Ann's second 6th Birthday :)
Here are a few pictures from her party on Saturday.
The kids spent the entire afternoon playing outside on the trampoline, the slides (which were a HUGE hit) and in the spa :) I think that she had fun, Hehe!!
On Wednesday, her actual Birthday, she got a Disney Princess Sleeping Beauty Pony that's the perfect size for barbie's to ride on from Cayleb, Noah and Sarah Rose. Mommy and Daddy got her a Mariposa Barbie and a "Barbie: The Magic of Pegasus" DVD. She also can't forget that Nana and Pop's got her and her siblings the super cool Airplane Teeter Totter from Costco!! She also got some fun money from Grandma Eques and her buddy Dylan.
On Saturday she got the Disney Princess Cinderella Pony from her friend Lily; a "Topple" game from her friend Maggie; and Barbie Camera and a beach Barbie from her friends Thomas, Marcus, and Cyrus; and a Barbie Mustang Car from her friends Kourtney and Brittney!! She had such a great time playing with everyone and it was a blast for the rest of us as well. I LOVE ENTERTAINING!! I made her another cake, an experiment of brownie crust, strawberry ice cream filling and a fudge topping. IT'S DELICIOUS!!! I still have a few pieces in the freezer that I am hoarding!! Hehe :)
Is Summer Half Full or Half Empty ??
After that adventure ends I am hoping to be able to help my friend Kristy move her and her family across town (closer to us!). Not that our town is huge or anything (pop is less than 3,000 year rounders I would guess.) Our town isn't really set up like a typical town, with a general downtown area, though the area down by the water is generally the most populated, it's more like little islands of sub divisions divided by farms, people with acreage like us, and wetland areas that can not be developed. It's really nice, because even though we are all clustered around the beautiful bay, we all have our own space, some more than others, but really, even the subdivisions have only a short brisk walk to some sort of open space or water. Sorry, I know that I have digressed. Part of the "move" is a smallish yard sale that we are going to have here, because they are moving into a substantially smaller home so they need to purge a little extra stuff and I always have a collection going on of things I would usually just donate to the local "A.R.C." That is planned for this Saturday, so hopefully we will get good yard sale weather and will sell all of our
We also got the second installment of our "swingset" built. And, yeah, I talked myself and Jason and the kids out of the Costco one, even though is it a great playset. But, here's the cool part, we have a 20 foot double slide (for racing) going down the side of one of our hills, right off to the side of where the actual swing set is going to be built!! I am going to go take a picture and post it on here in a few minutes, but I have to go move laundry around :) Okay, here you go :)
So here is the grass almost full grown, I am so excited it looks so BEAUTIFUL out my back windows now, no more garbage, piles of blackberry brambles, fallen trees etc. Look back to May's posts to find some in progress pictures and see the change!!
Another back yard shot. You might be able to find a blog in May with Progress shots where these two trees can be located. It is really an amazing difference!
You can see how big it is compared to Cayleb! and Sarah Rose!!
Cayleb :)
Cayleb and Sarah Rose getting ready to race :)
Cayleb ready to race :)
Sarah Rose still getting ready to race :) I had to catch her, so I don't have a slide shot, sorry!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Happy Birthday Charity Ann!!
She had a wonderful Birthday with us this year, and we have planned a small party for her on Saturday with some of her friends :)